January 4th, 2024
Dubai
My Birthday.
Today I complete 40 years of my existence in this world. And many things come to my mind when I reflect on my life for the period I acctually can remember. The people that impacted me, the places I have been, the lovers that loved me, the ones that hurt me, the money I made, the money I lost, the laughter, the tears. But life isn't about the past, it's about the present and the future, right?
Right?
My last 10 years have been though. Financially, emotionally and phisically. Bankrupt, divorced, won it all, lost it all. I am 40 and I have nothing to show myself for other than my memories of what I have done. Maybe that's why I started to write these journals. I have lost money, cars, friends, jobs, even my dog in some extend, but I couldn't affor to lose my memories. However, we can't live in the past. So what's now?
Life re-starts at 40. Today I am making...
(I got interrupted)
Today I am making the decision to stop living in the past and woring about the future. Only the present stays. The focus is on the now.
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My birthday was amazing. Maria prepared me many surprises during the day. In the morning she put a sign on the floor, with cup cakes and candles. At midday, she took me to lunch, and at night, she called my parents to sing "Happy Birthday."
I loved it.
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